NaPoMo Day 17: Mixed Signals / by Shanelle Gabriel

This is for the woman who said yes but meant no. 

See, you’d label it buyers remorse

But her goods were taken not sold

Said yes

Clenched fists, shut eyes

Silent cries said no

Of course

“Who’s is it?”

Her body is his to own

Her lip trembling and tears 

Couldn’t be her mouthing prayers

She really didn't want him to stop

I mean,

Women never really know what they want

So hormonal 

Mixed signals he was never taught to read

They say 1 in 200 women are color blind

While 1 in 12 men have this color deficiency 

No wonder they can’t tell between red and green

Plowing through yellow

This is for the woman

Who said yes but meant no

Cause of years of being told her no wasn't sufficient

Told he didn't even really need her permission 

Told if she had a problem no one would listen

Cause "you know what it's like when he doesn't get his medicine"

Misogyny gave him the prescription 

She has no choice but to fill

We still live in a world where a woman's right to her body

Gets shot down by a room full of men

In senate bills

Where rape isn’t caused by rapists

But how tight the top, short the skirt

Where it makes to sense to struggle to call the cops

Who do you think will come first

So why would her bedroom be safe 

Why would he not be in charge

When you learn sex from porn

What other roles would you think there are

She should be glad to be a background actress

In the bedroom every man gets to be the star

This is for the woman

Who said yes but meant no

Cause no is too "negative"

And she wanted to keep her man

"If he gets it up

It's your job to bring it down"

Like he doesn't have two perfectly good hands

Men have needs

You should understand

Always be ready 

The place between your legs juicy

Matter of fact, it could be dry

As long as legs open wide

As long as he can force his way inside

Bend over

Let me smash

Lemme hit

I’ma beat it up

Be turned on when he makes rape sound sexy

All adjectives violent

He’ll ask you if you like it like this

But won’t wait for a response

She’s been told baby girl, 

Calm down

You'll be alright

Baby if you love me you'd let me try

If you love me you'll do what I like

Do you want me to go elsewhere

You ain't got nothing I can't go outside and find

This is for the woman

Who said yes but meant no

Cause no means there'll be a fight

So hallow tongued

Broken half smile

Taught love isn't about compromise

It's about sacrifice

Spent so many years saying yes to mans desire

She doesn't even know what she actually likes

Never reached an orgasm but has had sex countless times

Taught to repeat

Love is a body cemented on top of me

Love is a penis concrete

Heavy inside me

Pain is pleasure. 

Love hurts

And I learned how to love from my daddy

Love and Violation 

I learned synonymously

The word no was never in my vocabulary

This is for the woman

Who said yes but meant no

Taught to swallow semen and pride

Be fine

With being treated like a whore

But stay dignified in the public eye

A freak in the sheets 

Is always defined by how readily

you meet a mans needs

Wires will always be crossed

When social constructs and power dynamics 

Make men think they're in the movie weird science

And they can create and exploit a woman's sexual mechanics

They can focus on the yes

Ignore the no that was sandwiched

As long as there's a yes 

Forget the body language

She consented to the sex

So she alone is responsible for the damage

There was an "ok" mumbled somewhere

Put it in before she changes her mind

Put the gun to her head

And let her commit slow suicide

This is for the woman who was never told she could say no at anytime

Cause coerced or forced sex is a crime

This is for the woman

Who said yes but meant no

Although though no question was posed

This is for the woman  

Who said yes but meant no cause they already labeled her a hoe

This is for the woman 

Who said yes but meant no. 

Cause it would’ve have the same results.

This is for the woman who was a girl 

Who said yes because she wasn't old enough to say no to adults

This is for the woman dating a man 

Who once said yes but meant no

And continued the endless cycle

This is for the woman

Who said yes but meant no

Who said yes but meant no

Who said no but meant no

Who said no but meant no

Who said nothing but meant no

Who said nothing but meant no

Who said...